[Dual Post]

[the8thmonarch]

Journal Post
So. What do you do when you want to talk to a shrink. But the one best likely to deal with you is you. And the attitude of any others makes you want to make the shrink quit their job and vanish and show up three towns away.

Event Post
::You find Moeko exiting a flower shop, lighting up a cigarette. Looking at the sky. She's uneasy, bouncing from heel to heel, looking a receipt.::

Comments

[Journal]

[lightning_strke]

You want to talk to a shrink?

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

Yeah. I have a lot of shitty attitude issues ranging from the fact I take pleasure in seeing people miserable/worsen themselves and I wanna know why.

To the fact I'm a giant bitch with multiple attitude issues who runs on spite and ripping people off.

Might as well try bettering myself since I'm on 'parole'. I guess.

Especially since that fucking mess with Judgeman.

Re: [Journal]

[lightning_strke]

Well...

Logically, um, I think the choice is kinda obvious who you should talk to...

But I guess you can't really trust her or yourself when it comes to it, huh.

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

We can't stand each other at all!

It's even more annoying when people call us sisters or stupid crap like that.

And she's so fucking pretentious and snooty like she thinks she's the bee's knees or some garbage like that.

Re: [Journal]

[lightning_strke]

Yeah, I can see the problem here...

I dunno, can't she just... pretend she's being professional or something, instead? I dunno what she can do.

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

She is professional.

I just think she's a gigantic self ego-stroking tool.

And the first rule of anything is you don't take advice from yourself.

Re: [Journal]

[lightning_strke]

I guess.

But it sounds like taking to other shrinks would be just as bad, if not worse??

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

Yeah. One Shrink ended up being Freudian and said I had some complex with my mother and doing her.

Another struck me as being a pretentious windbag, so I suggested she find work in a more physically active and challenging field. Which she's doing very well for herself now.

And they all start looking at me with this disapproving look when I tell them I deal in loans and business.

Re: [Journal]

[lightning_strke]

Why do they get all disapproving??

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

Apparently they or their families took out big loans.

And forgot to consider interest on late payments.

Which ain't my problem if they're a bunch of mooching deadbeats who didn't work out or plan out the fact they might have hiccups.

Re: [Journal]

[lightning_strke]

Well.

That's fair, I think.

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

Point is.

All these shrinks are no help, and the only one that probably would make sense is objectively useless since she and me are like oil and water.

And.

Fuck everything. Just fuck. Everything.

Re: [Journal]

[the8thmonarch]

It's. Just. Like.

What am I supposed to objectively do. When nothing seems to want to work!?

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

You look like you could use someone to vent at. Your order wrong or something?

[ Walking up beside you, a bag of groceries slung over his back. ]

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

Drop the all loving saint routine.

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

Man, ain't a guy allowed to be relaxed after his vacation? Killjoys, the lot of you.

[ He sighs. ]

Seriously, though, what's eating at you.

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

::Sighs.::

You know, I'd chew you out for prying, but what the fuck ever, I don't have the energy.

I feel responsible for Grant.

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

[ His mood immediately tanks. ]

...Hah, yeah, join the fuckin' club.

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

How the fuck are you responsible. You aren't the one who tried to kill her for fucking up her boyfriend. So don't try to out pity party me.

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

No, I just deliberately antagonized her about her actions at every damn turn, constantly picked fights with her, and was the one who let her reactivate her Dark Signer powers when she threw herself on Rhongomyniad's spear. So excuse me for feeling like shit for playing my part in this clusterfuck.

[ ...He takes a moment and then takes a deep breath, pinching the bridge of his nosee. ]

...Sorry, you're right, this ain't fuckin' about me. I'm just. Trying to say I understand where you're comin' from.

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

And I caused the cycle of perpetual revenge looping over. And over. And over. And over.

By seeking revenge on her, she felt like revenge was acceptable or some shit.

But I figure we're going to climb bullshit mountain of the blame game. Because you're a martyring asshole like that.

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

I've actually mostly gotten over my martyr complex, thanks, took a couple people yelling at me while I was hospitalized. [ He reaches into the grocery bag, offering Moeko a bottle of what -looks- to be hard cider. ] Turns out dying puts a new spin on what you're actually willing to die for.

Anyway, look, my point is... I get it, I really do. You shouldn't beat yourself up over it, though, cause it never feels worth it, take it from an expert. You can feel responsible without taking it out on yourself.

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

I'm. Not beating myself up that badly. Just sending flowers in once to twice a week with a letter.

And I blew you up pretty damn well. How'd you walk that off, anyways.

[Event]

[becomeanwarrior]

Still, you can talk to me about this shit. Ain't like my shit stinks any worse than yours, track record wise.

...Right, I never told you that story, huh. I uh. Didn't. Not really. Turns out the way to become really bonded to Gigantech is to die and you get a choice of whether you want to come back. Ended up burning away a fair bit of my 'human' side in the process. I'm... not quite a hybrid, but I'm not far off, either. Kinda like Jean being the Thought Ruler, if that makes sense.

Doesn't exactly come with top-tier regeneration, though. I managed to get dragged off to a hospital and now most of my ribcage is prosthetic.

Re: [Event]

[the8thmonarch]

... So you keeping it prosthetic? 'cuz I'm pretty I could shove my hand in there and force it back to being actual bone, but it'd hurt like a bitch. That and I know you want to roboticize you and Shiroko.

And go fuck yourself. Your shit stinks way worse than mine.