I've actually mostly gotten over my martyr complex, thanks, took a couple people yelling at me while I was hospitalized. [ He reaches into the grocery bag, offering Moeko a bottle of what -looks- to be hard cider. ] Turns out dying puts a new spin on what you're actually willing to die for.

Anyway, look, my point is... I get it, I really do. You shouldn't beat yourself up over it, though, cause it never feels worth it, take it from an expert. You can feel responsible without taking it out on yourself.