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[the8thmonarch]

It's definitely strange to be used to a shower finally...

And I don't like how full my head has gotten.

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Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Well... How does it feel familiar? What in particular is... Jumping out at you, I guess?

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

My parents grinding their heel into my back, my liege.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Ah... Perhaps before the emptiness came about... You were being pressured by them then, as well.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

... Should of known. I vaguely remember that.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

... I hope that you'll be able to do what you at least want to, though.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

Nope.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Eventually.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

Probably not.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I'm going to hold hope otherwise.

Or else I'll be very annoyed.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

I'd suggest being very annoyed, my liege.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Now, if I end up being very annoyed, that would just sour my mood and my patience.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

But it's what will happen.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

You misunderstand.

If I at least hold hope for now, I'll just be disappointed later on instead of annoyed for a relatively constant rate.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

... I still think that's futile, my liege.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I exercise a lot of futility, sadly.

At least I try now instead of giving up.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

I still don't see the point, your majesty.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I guess it would be hard to, from a first view.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

Huh?

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

I didn't understand the point of doing so at first, as well-- after all, why try to hold hope for something that I'd have no chance for, or determination for something that wouldn't be of my place to do it?

But then I realized that if I didn't at least try to, it would end up in failure due to my own inability. So I at least try to hold the hope that it would happen, instead.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

You're not making sense, sire.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

Ah... How else do I put it...

... If I do nothing, because I find no point in doing so, I cause the failure, itself.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

... It isn't your failure, this is just merely insurmountable.

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

And what about you?

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[the8thmonarch.livejournal.com]

...?

Re: [Private to his Leige, Shikou]

[observershikou.livejournal.com]

It will be insurmountable to me, because it is not my family.

But you are their daughter. They expect you to take on a large responsibility without any knowledge of the occupation itself, and attempt to force you down by having someone spy on you.

Don't you think that they do it, because they know you'll just bend over and allow them to?

If such a thing has happened before, then I think the greatest shock would be if you continued to try to work, regardless of who is following you.