the8thmonarch | (no subject)

I'm not surprised. I really doubt you could remember all that much. About your past, that is.

Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about your job... I take it you really enjoyed it there.

I remember... a decent amount.

I liked the clothes mostly. The customers... weren't the best, but I did like the clothes.

Ah? I suppose asking you 'like what' would be rather unfair... can you give me an idea what you remember of your life, though? Friends, family, social position, that sort of thing?

Well, would your parents let you wear the clothes just around your own home?

Shiroko-chan? Kouji-chan...? My dog? ... Though I think he's getting ill. But... Shiroko and Kouji have avoided me...

My father is a banking executive, my mother I think is... I'm not sure what the proper term is.

"Rich Bimbo." I think is what people call me.

No. Instant disowning. I should not subjugate myself to the excrete of the mindless proletariat. Whatever that means.

Your dog you say?

As to Shiroko and Kouji... well, in their eyes, you've been gone two... maybe three years now. You might talk to them about the times you remember, and maybe they'll help you fill in the blanks.

Not sure I can help you there, then.

I see...

Do you have any siblings? Does the money matter all that much to you?

yes.

... I've... tried. They snub me.

I think there is a term, but... it's inappropriate.

...

None. And... it's hard to say?

I don't remember you mentioning your dog before. Maybe I've just forgotten.

That was before you started remembering, wasn't it?

I imagine.

...hmm?

I see. Still, I'm surprised they'd still be so hard on you, especially after everything you've been through... and especially without another heir.

It... is the only thing at our estate that treats us kindly.

... Even after.

Yes.

Am I... that stupid?

... Been through? And... they say that's exactly why they're so hard.

..."us"?

...Mmm... That's a pity. But like I said, they've moved on with their lives, I think. It's hard to play catch-up with that.

Mmm... I don't think I'd call you stupid, Moeko. But you're lacking a lot of foundation that most people take for granted. They don't know your circumstances, so they take your intelligence for granted. I, on the other hand, know where you started, and feel you've made very good progress.

You know, with why you can't remember, and how you've been gone for years where your parents are concerned.

Still, it's a real shame... I wasn't especially close with you back then, but I'm pretty sure that kind of pressure is what made you snap in the first place... you couldn't be really happy and make your parents accept you at the same time.

I meant me. Slip of the tongue, so to speak. Apologies.

... That. Hurts.

I... feel much... better than I was months ago.

... No, I've been around as far as my parents are concerned. That's what I'm trying to tell you. I've always been in communication with them some how. That's my point. Even when you said I wouldn't be... they say I was.

... Definitely feels familiar.

Still, sorry to hear about your dog being sick, then.

Sorry. I wish I could help more with that, but it's ultimately up to them.

It shows.

...really? That's... rather odd. I have to admit I'm quite surprised at that.

I imagine it does. And I imagine it's still a hard choice.

It's just. Old.

... mmm.

How... would you say I am now, from what... it looks to be?

That is the situation.

It... is. I don't want to give this up for some reason.

Still, it's sad.

Mmm... from a blunt, unsympathetic perspective? I'd say you're simple and slow, but in a relatively normal way.

Not sure if that makes it easier or harder.

But you still feel miserable at the same time.

It's definitely tricky. About the only thing that might help is to get through school, preferably one where you're away from your parents so you have more freedom, if that's possible, but after that, you'd probably want to get married, and have your own home. It'd be easier to balance happiness and family with some distance.

... He was a good dog.

I feel smart, definitely. But I guess it's not enough for everyone else.

Yes.

My parents are saying they're already selecting suitors for me as we speak.

Mmm...

Like I said, you mainly lack knowledge, not intelligence. You hesitate because you aren't conditioned like most people. I think you'll only get better with time.

...you really don't get any choice in your own life, do you?

Thanks... I guess?

Nope.

Good luck finding happiness while keeping your life together.

And hey, if worse comes to worse, I could probably find a room for you here, and you could go back to work at the cosplay cafe, or something.

... Huh?

Just saying, if the worst happens and you get disowned, you have something to fall back on, so don't lose hope.

I know I'd feel better about things if I had a fallback like that.

... I have a fallback?

Well yeah, that's what I'm offering to you.

It wouldn't be the greatest life, I know, but at least it'd be comfortable.

... But that would mean being disowned, which is bad.

I know, I'm just saying you have options.

Not the greatest options, but still options.

... I don't think I'll take it. Sorry.

Oh, I didn't suggest it so you'd jump at it.

I'm just letting you know the offer is open, in case something happens.

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